Rogojin roared with laughter. He laughed as though he were in a sort of fit.
It was strange to see him laughing so after the sombre mood he had been in just
before.
"Oh, I like that! That beats anything!" he cried convulsively, panting for
breath. "One is an absolute unbeliever; the other is such a thorough--going
believer that he murders his friend to the tune of a prayer! Oh, prince, prince,
that's too good for anything! You can't have invented it. It's the best thing
I've heard!"
"Next morning I went out for a stroll through the town," continued the
prince, so soon as Rogojin was a little quieter, though his laughter still burst
out at intervals, "and soon observed a drunken-looking soldier staggering about
the pavement. He came up to me and said, 'Buy my silver cross, sir! You shall
have it for fourpence--it's real silver.' I looked, and there he held a cross,
just taken off his own neck, evidently, a large tin one, made after the
Byzantine pattern. I fished out fourpence, and put his cross on my own neck, and
I could see by his face that he was as pleased as he could be at the thought
that he had succeeded in cheating a foolish gentleman, and away he went to drink
the value of his cross. At that time everything that I saw made a tremendous
impression upon me. I had understood nothing about Russia before, and had only
vague and fantastic memories of it. So I thought, 'I will wait awhile before I
condemn this Judas. Only God knows what may be hidden in the hearts of
drunkards.'
"Well, I went homewards, and near the hotel I came across a poor woman,
carrying a child--a baby of some six weeks old. The mother was quite a girl
herself. The baby was smiling up at her, for the first time in its life, just at
that moment; and while I watched the woman she suddenly crossed herself, oh, so
devoutly! 'What is it, my good woman I asked her. (I was never but asking
questions then!) Exactly as is a mother's joy when her baby smiles for the first
time into her eyes, so is God's joy when one of His children turns and prays to
Him for the first time, with all his heart!' This is what that poor woman said
to me, almost word for word; and such a deep, refined, truly religious thought
it was--a thought in which the whole essence of Christianity was expressed in
one flash--that is, the recognition of God as our Father, and of God's joy in
men as His own children, which is the chief idea of Christ. She was a simple
country-woman--a mother, it's true-- and perhaps, who knows, she may have been
the wife of the drunken soldier!
"Listen, Parfen; you put a question to me just now. This is my reply. The
essence of religious feeling has nothing to do with reason, or atheism, or
crime, or acts of any kind--it has nothing to do with these things--and never
had. There is something besides all this, something which the arguments of the
atheists can never touch. But the principal thing, and the conclusion of my
argument, is that this is most clearly seen in the heart of a Russian. This is a
conviction which I have gained while I have been in this Russia of ours. Yes,
Parfen! there is work to be done; there is work to be done in this Russian
world! Remember what talks we used to have in Moscow! And I never wished to come
here at all; and I never thought to meet you like this, Parfen! Well,
well--good-bye--good-bye! God be with you!"
"Lef Nicolaievitch!" cried Parfen, before he had reached the next landing.
"Have you got that cross you bought from the soldier with you?"
A new fancy! The prince reflected, and then mounted the stairs once more. He
pulled out the cross without taking it off his neck.
Parfen was silent. With sad surprise the prince observed that the look of
distrust, the bitter, ironical smile, had still not altogether left his
newly-adopted brother's face. At moments, at all events, it showed itself but
too plainly,
At last Rogojin took the prince's hand, and stood so for some moments, as
though he could not make up his mind. Then he drew him along, murmuring almost
inaudibly,
An old woman opened to them and bowed low to Parfen, who asked her some
questions hurriedly, but did not wait to hear her answer. He led the prince on
through several dark, cold-looking rooms, spotlessly clean, with white covers
over all the furniture.
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